Jazz seemed like the solution and after thinking about it for a few days I bought it. What did I have to lose at this point? A bit of money maybe, but that can be replaced in time, and the PayPal protection made sure I only took a time risk before buying it.
A referral, followed by a short wait, and Jazz was sort of in my world. I really appreciate art and I have to say these male sex dolls are art through and through. It takes a lot of skill to make something that lifelike. When my dolls’ skin is warm, it’s as convincing as it gets. I even had a friend come over and look at the doll, it’s an odd subject. He walked in and was a bit startled because she looked so real. Even when he walked in knowing there was a doll in the house, he was caught off guard, but he was just as impressed as I was.
After getting used to life with Sina, I started posting her photos on Tumblr, German forums and on TDF Lifelike Sex Dolls, where I got a lot of positive feedback. Later I created social media accounts on Twitter and Instagram.
Unfortunately I had my doubts. My first two sex dolls were definitely experiments and both ended within a few weeks. At 27 I was still a virgin, and not because I didn’t feel like it. Virgo of my own free will, mind you, because at this point in my life I’d turned down more than half a dozen direct advances from women. I got some anger from them for that. But I was only interested in one girl, and that was only on my wedding night.
All that idealism is great, but it’s of little use when there’s nothing to do but spot every attractive girl’s hips as soon as she comes into view. The distraction of constant self-denial became a problem for me. And to my idealism was added the counterargument of how lame I would be in bed on the wedding night. Not exactly a good wedding present for my bride. So what to do?
I had those plain rubber vaginas from the adult stores, but I wasn’t very happy with them. While they “simulated” sex better than my hand, they required greasing and cleaning, and needed more privacy. Also, they were less satisfying than hand, and yet I climaxed in seconds. I confided all this to my counselor and she suggested that I should look into a love doll first. I knew very little about them or what size or version would best serve me. Stupidly, I settled on a very expensive doll of an odd medium size (145cm) with loose joints. I think stupid was a bit harsh. I was very excited during the ordering process and shipping time. I checked on her every day. I even got her some lingerie. Then the big day came and I had her on my bed in my dorm room.
